What are you being today? What a question? How is our beingness different from our doingness? Do you ever get so caught up in the do-do world that you forget about what you are being?
The last two weeks for me has been a rollercoaster. I got a phone call last Monday that my mother had been taken to the hospital. She was fine and had driven herself to work that morning and when her employees arrived they found she could not complete a sentence or remember the passcode to her computer that has been the same for 8 yrs. I immediatly flew to Charleston, SC where she and my Dad were at MUSC. What they found was a large tumor in the thalamus, a place that is inoperable because of the damage it would do to vital functions of the brain. Seemingly instantly she was like a child; not able to do simple math or even name more than 3 animals in a minute.

The short version is that in the less than two weeks that have followed she has had 4 screws put into her head while she was totally awake. A biopsy of the brain that includes a hole drilled into the skull. Over 100 pokes and needles and blood drawn and more drugs than she has ever had in her life...we have always opted for the natural route. Her blood sugar and blood pressure that have always been in the normal range are now out of whack due to the other drugs. I have slept in a hospital chair and done things that I never thought I would...like changing her bed pan.

In all of this on one hand I felt as if I was putting my life on hold; that I wasn't 'doing' anything. I even did our last conf call for the CAN from the hosp. What I realize as I look back...am home today for the first time in 3 weeks...is all of the changes we made. Esp how amazing the changes my mom is making in people's lives just by being. It is amazing the calls and well wishes from people who have said what a difference she has made in their lives...the conversations that she may not even remember today that have changed someone else's day or even life. The little things like inviting someone to their house for Thanksgiving dinner one year who had nowhere to go. A small token that they never thought twice about but made such an impact that that young man drove 5 hrs to see her yesterday when he heard the news.

One of the most interesting things has been that the tears that have been shed have all been from gratitude and a recognition of just what we have been to another and what others are willing to gift by just being with us. Who have you gifted with your presence today? Who has gifted you? Have you ever let them know what a gift they are?

Even in our least of moments we are changing and affecting the world around us in one way or another. We can intensify the trauma and drama and upset and intrigue of the world around us or we can spread the joy, laughter and frivolity that we truly are. I was lucky enough to share an amazing moment with 3 others who were camping out in a waiting room on the neurology floor the other night. I was feeling tired and achy and wanting to be anywhere else than on this uncomfy couch when we began to chat. All 3 from different walks of life...different countries even and there for different reasons. It became like a scene from camp.... all we needed was the fire and marshmellows. Instead of wallowing in our stories we all shared ideas of healing, hope and not shockingly with me to energy and looking outside of what is known. It ended up with an impromtu class on energy healing and a few of the processes of Access Energy that made its way to the family waiting room of the ICU.

What effect that had on the others I do not know but was such a gift to me to see that even there and even when I was feeling I was 'doing nothing' that I could be the change and shift the energies even in the ICU in the middle of the night. There are so many other moments like this that I am grateful for. There was the neurology interns that had not seen the video "Stroke of Insight" that we have here on the CAN and now want to show it to all their patients. Then neuro oncologist that says when I introduced him to the concepts of Dr Bruce Lipton in "Biology of Belief"..."Educate me...I don't know of any of this...I want to know more!" I was amazed at the numbers of nurses who wanted to know more about not only nutrition and cleansing because they see the effects of toxins everyday but energetically how to better nurture their patients. Our room 707E became the hangout for many because of the antics and twisted sense of humor of my family...mainly my Dad who is the prankster of the universe. (The pic I included here is when we had the nurse push them both in this huge wheelchair they brought because was the only one avail at the time!)

The biggest awareness I had was one day after speaking to her doctors and seeing how excited they were to learn of new and intergrative therapies I had to ask did she take on this tumor to change things in the medical world??? All my life I have studied healing and energy and physics and naturopathic therapies and thought I was the warrior out to change the world. I realized as I watched her lie there in bed that it was her and her beingness that was actually making such changes. Did she agree to take on this tumor to be the change? Wow ....

What are you being that you may not even realize?

What if you could own your greatness now?

What else is possible in your life?
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Do You Ever Feel Like Your Chooser Is Broken?

Do you find yourself in similar situations over and over? Do you procrastinate because you are afraid of making the 'wrong choice'? Do you agonize over making the best decision? choosing the best course? writing the best article? being the best candidate? choosing the best mate?

Does all this agonizing and figuring out mean we actually don't trust what we know? Or that we believe there is something inherently wrong with us so we have to constantly judge if we are doing or being the right thing? Do you believe you have made bad or wrong choices in the past? Are you afraid to choose wrongly now so you just don't choose? How much are we choosing just to avoid the pain of losing?

What if losing was not an issue? Then what would you choose just because you desired it? Not the right or perfect choice for all of your millions of reasons or justifications...

How many times have you procrastinated because you did not want to make a 'difficult' choice?

If this sounds like you at all then you may like to join us on the Change Agents Network Wed @ 9pm est for a call on the Elimination of Procrastination and the Freedom of Choice.





What else is possible in your life?
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What Are You Still Holding Onto That Is Holding You Back?

"How many would rather give up the
possibilities that question creates in
exchange for the comfortable
conclusions that will cement your life down?
Unless we are willing to function as
the question then we are making our lives concrete.

Then all possibilities cease and only conclusions

can be created. Conclusion means,

'No fucking way anything else is going to happen here.'
How much of the finite construction of who, what,

when, why and how you are, are you really willing to give up

to receive the life you would like to generate?"
~Gary Douglas

It's all there waiting for you to choose!

What are you still holding on to that is holding you back?

What would your life be like if you were willing to change even that?

So you think you are a Change Agent...

So now you're Change Agent . . .
What does that mean? Being a Change Agent is about participating. It’s about questioning. It’s about being all that you are. It’s about being willing to look at things that have never been and asking why not? It’s about functioning outside of this reality while generating a phenomenal life now. It's about engaging. It’s about showing up. It’s about giving up all of our definitions of who, what, when, why and how we are. It’s about not buying into anyone else’s point of view. It’s about being willing to be aware of everything. It’s about that knowing you have always had that there has to be more. It’s about pushing the boundaries of what is possible. It’s about celebrating you. It’s about consciously generating your life as you would like it to show up; never settling for what is. Ultimately, it's about coming together with others to consciously generate new possibilities for being.

Where is all this headed?

What does being a Change Agent mean to you?

What would you like to change?

Questions for Extrapolation

What choices are you making that are closing doors instead of opening them?

Are you willing to be aware, receive and gift energy, space and consciousness?

Was your magic stolen, destroyed, confiscated or hidden from you long ago? Would you like to claim it back now?

What are you still punishing yourself for and what will it take to set you free from all that?

Who or what is standing in the way or holding you back from your success with money, business, relationships, joy, ecstasy and bliss?

Can you pull yourself out of the entrenchments of your established realities? Whose reality are you living anyway?

Are you willing to leave every one behind? Or will you force them to reject you first?

Can you be comfortable in your own skin even when you have nothing in common with anyone else?

Are you in allowance of how much you really care?

Can you create a phenomenal life after great setbacks or disappointments? even death, loss or divorce?

Can you stay in your potency even when people do not like you?

What is the one thing you have been so unwilling to change that could give you the most freedom if you would just choose it?

What else can you choose that you have been refusing?

Encrypted in the matrix of your human blueprinting is your secret code. Are you willing to crack the code and find the real you?



What if that is all that is required here? Be you.... what else is there? Anything else would be living a lie.



How much joy can you handle?

Are you a DD?

OK,

...Definantly Different?

or

Dumber than Dirt?

What is Purpose?

What if the thing you decided was your life's purpose was the thing used to make sure it would hide the true greatness of you?

What if you have been so dissappointed on disheartened with certain areas of your life because you have been following a purpose that was not yours, a lie...a life that has nothing to do with our true desired purpose?

Would you have to acknowlege you are far greater than you thought you were and far greater than you have been willing to be?

Will Extrapolation Really Make You Go Blind?

What separates mavericks like Richard Branson, Ian Schrager or Jay Abraham from the rest of the pack? Do they have superpowers that we mere mortals can only dream of? Extra appendages? A genetic mutation? More than 24 hrs in their day? Born under the right sign? What is it?

I say two things...that really boil down to one. First, they are masters of extrapolation. And the good news? With diligent practice and a little inspiration, you can master it too!

So what is Extrapolation, you ask? Sounds like it could be fun...

The dictionary defines : to estimate to values outside the known range.



OK so what is that? To create outside of this reality.... To not rely on past successes or failures to determine your future.... Being willing to let go of everything and start over.... To be controversial.... To look at things that no one has ever done and not ask how? but why not?... To always be in the question. What if the moment we think we have the answer, have it all figured out...what if that is the moment we stop creating and things begin to decay?

Do you ever have a day that seems just magic? You need to make a certain contact and you happen to go for coffee and sit right beside the person who can get your foot in the door. There is horrible traffic and bad weather and right when you need it everything just clears up. Maybe you have required money and out of the blue someone calls who owes you money that you completely forgot about. I seem to live my life there when I get out of my own way!

For weeks I had been trying to figure out how to get in with a particular company whose amazing reputation would help my new project immensly just to be associated with them. I had researched, made a few phone calls, but nothing. I was on a flight from Savannah, Ga to NYC and bummed because I didn't get my own row. I began to chat with the woman beside me, just small talk, as you do ...Where are you from? What do you do?....etc....Well, I was also on the look out for a graphic design person. Guess what she did? Right, graphic design...but that is not the even the exciting part. She was freelancing for this exact company...down here...in the middle of nowhere.......What? How is that possible? I thought. Turns out the owners have a beach home here and love it so much they opened a small corp headquarters on this little island where I thought I was hibernating. What are the odds?? How did I get so lucky?

Do things ever just happen to us? Or are we in a constant state of creation whether we acknowlege it or not? What is this place called "the Zone" and how do we get there? Exactly how does one create out of thin air? What awareness do we have to have in order to know which seat to sit in, when not to be in the office? the right investment to make? when it is time to cut and run? what energies are needed for a project to come to fruition with ease? even who not to partner with, in business or in bed for that matter? How much awareness have we shut down not to know these things? How many choices have we made that we knew somewhere when we made them that they were wrong? or were only right for that moment and not forever? .....What if we all still didn't talk to strangers? ate everything on our plate whether we liked it or not? and thought 'down there' was a dirty place?

Hopefully you are over those choices and decisions! But that is how we live our lives in some aspects. Still abiding by rules or decisions or judgements that are just about as silly and useless, if not even detrimental! What if we only lived by our own rules of what feels right to us? What if that is the difference between us and massive success? Would Richard Branson follow how everybody else does business? If he did where would he be today? Would Ian Schrager worry about protocol in the hotel industry? Or have they amassed fortunes creating things that the world has never seen?

Where do you get your brilliance? I know it is in there. It is palpable. I can feel it just waiting for you to invite it to burst into being. How long has it been since you dared to let yourself go there? What inspires you? Where do you go?

Maybe it is during a long hot shower....maybe while driving 95+mph down the freeway.... or perhaps curled up with a mocha on a lazy Sunday morning…….. Where is your sweet spot? What gets your creatives juices flowing?

What if you lived in that space?

Blogging...me???

So I am blogging....why? you ask...because it feels light....practicing tools I learned from Access Energy Transformation (if it feels light; it is right- if it feels heavy it is a lie) So this felt light...to share the dribblings of my mind...with you. Who are you? Does anyone actually read these? What do you want to know? What are you searching for? What is light in your world? Can you even respond?....don't know that...must find out!

It 's 5:21...sun dropping behind the trees on this first day that feels like summer...although it is Feb...weird being in the south! So many smells here...just put a crumpet in the toaster...i am certain if you are from the UK this is not up to par but for me here in SC they are a tasty approximation...as i moved to answer my phone I caught the perfume of an orange I bought at the Farmers Market on Saturday...grown right here on the island, green leaves still attached...never smelled anything like this before...like a flower not an orange...sweet like honey. I had to go pick it up. Funny when i put it right to my nose the smell lost some of it's potency... We do that with lots of things I guess...better at a slight distance...what is that all about? What if we could keep all of our potency even when being scrutinized or compared? Or are we more potent when mixed and melded with other elements...like the space between the molecules in the air that we all occupy together. What do you require to be your full potency?

Crumpet's done...move to cabinet for a small plate...open to the heady aromas of dark Costa Rican Coffee...my remaining stash from my last glorious trip there a few months ago...also mixed in with that of Jasmin Green Tea and a yummy tease of citrus from Earl Grey...hmm...calling to me...I will make some tea...Funny that...tea and crumpets....purely a coincidence....contemplating what to have with my crumpets...I spy a ripe mango...looks about to burst ...so juicy....then get distracted by my sexy beast of a cat weaving his tail in and out of my legs....what is he asking for? treats? water? no, just some leg love....

I remember the nut butter (discovered when I thought I had peanut allergies but thanks to Access that is no more but i am sticking with this delicious substitute- much better than the real thing) must spread quickly before crumpet cools off.

What shall I write about in my blog I am thinking? Business, change agents, taking over the world......Cherries!!! I have cherry preserves I can put on top of the nut butter. Homemade from the most beautiful, nurturing african american woman you have ever seen! (Us white girls missed the boat somewhere I believe) Her food is devine and the kind of woman you wish your mom was...or your lover, whatever the case may be....so you could just curl up in her large comfy breasts and know that everything is truly alright! How does it get any better than this?

The teapot is starting to whistle...perfect timing! Don't you love it when everything arrives simultaneously?

Oh and my dryer buzzer going off. Maybe I will put on a warm snuggly clean shirt to go outside and write my blog...getting a bit chilly as sun dips into the water. But the fire red and cotton candy pink sky worth a little chill. Slip on big white button down man shirt...mmmm...still warm from the dryer, so comfy...detect the faint hint of a familiar bouquet...is that?...(realized I have not showered yet today...hazards of working from home!) ...no...i recognize it as the sweet scent of a beautiful man I got to know this weekend. How did I get so lucky?



...5:51 - Ok, I am back from swimming in that energy...my tea is cold....sunsetting ...time to write my blog....

What would you like to know?